A sherry, a martini,
a glimpse of heaven is a hand in the blouse
and a railing giving out under pressure.
head-over-heels, the ecstasy of drunken freefall,
the moment when revelry gives way to regret,
the splash, the floudering, the soaked-through shoes,
the sinking to limitless depths,
further than all the known hells,
oh to be young, oh to grow old,
oh to be sober, oh to be drunk,
oh to thank G-d for every moment lived,
oh to believe in no god at all,
oh, G-d, why won’t you let me believe,
oh, god, just let me drown.